far from home

i titled this blog far from home its going to be all in lower case too with little punctuation because for me this would symbolize us sitting together talking over a dimly lit dinner (not romantic simply close and personal)
we have been here for a little over 2 months, there have been many ups and downs. one thing for sure is that we are realizing how much we depend on each other, marriage seems to come alive when mixed with adventure, and our lives seem to echo the statement nicely, our daily life has become routine but we still find ourselves unsure of anything, sometimes things just do not add up and we are not sure whats going on,

this past weekend we went to the icerink and a local mall just exploring and for a date, dating here is something that has become in my eyes enjoyable, you see we are married as you all know so we are not really dating in the most common use of the word, however we do go on dates, we enjoy each other, we explore, we do things we could not afford in the states, and we do it with ease, this is why i like dating, i love getting to know sarah more through these times and having the adventures

i always thought marriage was going to be this one way in my mind, i was always told what to expect and about how things don't stay in the honeymoon phase forever
i now feel that the more i forget what i have been taught the more i learn, the more i enjoy, the more we grow as a couple, marriage is the best choice i have ever made.....

on the same thought of forgetting what we have been told, i am reminded of my constant mental battle over what it means to follow our Father and what it means to be a Christian (dare i use that word...)
I remember growing up learning so much about God, going to church, in sunday school,
how we were to act, how we were to pray, what we were to sing, i learned all of this, over the years i have memorized what things i needed to say to give the correct answers to spiritual questions,

i have learned what it means to be christian, i have learned theology, i have learned doctrines, i have learned so very many things, i went to college and learned more, i got a degree showing everyone what i have learned, yeah!

the last thing i have learned is how fake all of this stuff makes you
im not sure what else i can say because its all the ramblings of a sinful man,
but i will leave you with this,
i have lost my christianity
but not my faith...

So if that makes sense then good and if not then good cause that means you understand what im saying....

ON a last note,
Sarah's grandmother has passed away, this is the reason for the far from home title
we are far from home, home as in the united states although i dont know if we consider it home anymore,
but we are far from family and that we do still hold high
so where does this leave us?
what do we do when a loved one passes away and we are so far from home?

far from home i think we have all kinda felt this since we were born

please join me this week in praying for sarah and i
and praying for sarahs family
we are in need of it....